Reviews tagging 'Suicidal thoughts'

Chaperos by Dennis Cooper

35 reviews

marenluisaaa's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional funny mysterious sad tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.25

diesem buch eine gute bewertung zu geben fühlt sich so komisch an, aber ich muss sagen dass ich komplett HOOKED from start to finish war. so etwas habe ich noch NIE gelesen, was für ein geniales konzept!! vor allem der erste part war für mich so beeindruckend und fun to read, was war wahr und was nicht???

ich hätte niemals damit gerechnet dass man eine komplette auflösung bekommen würde!!! ich glaube, es hätte mir noch besser gefallen, wenn noch mehr offen geblieben wäre ODER der twist gewesen wär dass brad hinter allem überhaupt gesteckt hat… naja aber so war auch oke

 ich muss aber sagen: i love me some dark and fucked-up contents aber hier musste ich WIRKLICH schlucken und durchatmen. was hier teilweise geschrieben wurde war wahnsinnig alter & kann man bei explicit necrophilia, pedophilia und alle anderen -philias dann sone gute bewertung geben?? i guess so, wahrscheinlich sind solche foren und solche menschen halt wirklich überall und das alles ist gar nicht so weit hergeholt… trotzdem, das war zeitweise wirklich unkommentierter torture porn & das isses NICHT. 

nichtsdestotrotz war das ein wahnsinnig interessanter read & it sucked me in for good. habe auch unwillentlich echt viel über gay culture & kinks lernen können.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Cancer, Child abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Torture, Violence, Excrement, Vomit, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, and Sexual harassment

prettyboypercy's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional sad tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Plot
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? Yes
• Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

this is one of those books i feel so horrific to love. it’s depraved and sadistic and addictive, which is what the book wanted to be. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Body horror, Drug abuse, Homophobia, Mental illness, Misogyny, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Slavery, Suicidal thoughts, Terminal illness, Torture, Violence, Vomit, Medical content, Trafficking, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Murder, and Sexual harassment

lunababybat's review against another edition

dark mysterious sad fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? Yes
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

I loved mixed media, especially ones with unreliable narrators. Unlimately, it's up to the reader to decide what is true and what isn't. Who was Brad? Who really knows? Taking off half a star because there were way too many names to keep up with and I had to do a lot of doubling back to try to keep straight who was who. But all the kudos for how deliciously fucked up this story was and its unconventional formats. I think I need to find a community to talk about this one more. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Ableism, Adult/minor relationship, Alcoholism, Cursing, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Gore, Gun violence, Hate crime, Homophobia, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Excrement, Vomit, Medical content, Trafficking, Medical trauma, Suicide attempt, Murder, and Sexual harassment

nuclear_droid's review against another edition

challenging dark sad fast-paced

0.25

Thanks I hated it 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Cancer, Chronic illness, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Gun violence, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Slavery, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Excrement, Medical content, Trafficking, Suicide attempt, Murder, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Sexual harassment, and Injury/Injury detail

brokenlyrium's review against another edition

dark tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.75

This book is not for the faint of heart. I went into it looking for something gross, upsetting, something that I knew would leave a bad taste in my mouth when I finished it. This certainly served that purpose. Absolutely check any trigger/content warnings before reading.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Torture, Violence, Murder, and Injury/Injury detail

seraphiina's review against another edition

dark emotional mysterious fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Drug abuse, Drug use, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Torture, Violence, and Murder

Moderate: Cancer and Suicidal thoughts

jemmers's review against another edition

Too many characters and a convoluted storyline. I thought it was cool at first trying to piece this, albeit fucked up, mystery together from escort reviews and discussion board posts. But there are WAY too many characters to keep track of. My brain felt like that Pepe Silvia meme. The mental work to figure out who snuffed who, if any snuffing actually occurred at all, is not worth it, imo. Like I just don’t care enough.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Child abuse, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Vomit, Trafficking, Kidnapping, Stalking, Murder, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Pregnancy, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Alcohol, and Injury/Injury detail

ribbenkast's review against another edition

dark tense fast-paced

• Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

5.0

This book is not for everyone, and definitely not for the faint of heart. People are quick to say that about a lot of horror, but this time please heed the warning. 

However, I do have to give this book 5 ⭐️. It just does everything right. First there is the mystery: the book mainly consists of forum posts on an gay escort rating website in the early 2000's. There is no way to verify which accounts are real and which accounts are fake (even though the poor webmaster does try). Dennis Cooper does not take the reader by the hand. You have to do some detective work and decide for yourself what is real and what is fake. 

Secondly, it uses gore and violence effectively within the story. (So many times in extreme horror, gore is just simply there for the shock value. I find that rather overdone and boring). Some of the described acts are so vile, I had to put the book down for a bit. Whether these things actually happened or whether these were just the perverted ramblings of someone getting their weird rocks off remains to be debated. (Although we get some answers in the end.) 

When does a fantasy cross the line? What is ethical even if someone supposedly concented? It is a cruel account of what happens when people egg each other on to live their most perverted fantasies. This book written in 2004 is an important early conversation about Internet safety and mass delerium when people can hide in anonymity.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Cancer, Chronic illness, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Gore, Hate crime, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Slavery, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Blood, Excrement, Vomit, Medical content, Trafficking, Medical trauma, Stalking, Suicide attempt, Murder, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Pregnancy, Alcohol, Sexual harassment, Injury/Injury detail, and Classism

danimacuk's review against another edition

dark fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Addiction, Adult/minor relationship, Confinement, Death, Domestic abuse, Gore, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Terminal illness, Torture, Violence, Trafficking, Cannibalism, Medical trauma, and Murder

Moderate: Body horror, Body shaming, Cancer, Drug abuse, Gun violence, Pedophilia, Suicidal thoughts, Blood, and Excrement

Minor: Hate crime, Homophobia, Racism, and Abortion

junebug333's review against another edition

challenging dark emotional mysterious sad medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

Check the trigger warnings before reading. It is a graphic and dark book, pretty descriptive. but everyone has certain limits on what they want to read. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Cursing, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Gore, Mental illness, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Stalking, Sexual harassment, and Injury/Injury detail