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kaygo2490's review against another edition
3.0
2.5 stars. Hot smutty scenes. Terrible everything else.
bitchie's review against another edition
5.0
Well fuck me, I had a big long rambling review typed out, and hit the wrong button, and poof! Gone.
Let's try this again, a little less rambly.
I LOVED this book!
For those of you that look at my Fucking Loved if Shelf, here's a warning: this book contains themes you might not like- pseudo incest (that one of them actually thinks is real incest at first) and cheating. If either of those make or break a story for you, consider yourself warned.
Liam was gay, always had been. But he got caught up in a game of revenge between the prom queen and the bad boy, and ended up on the hook for a baby, at 16. Liam tried to be a good dad to Kel, even though he only saw him two weekends a month, from Saturday morning to Sunday afternoon. His parents paid the hospital bills, and Liam did the best he could with school and work and being a very part time dad.
He felt so much guilt about how much his parents were having to give up to help him out, that Liam fell into porn to help pay the bills. In porn he could finally be with men, and he could pay his child support, and Sabrina was milking him dry of every dime she could get, along with her scum bag husband, Kenny. The job wasn't so bad. He kept his day job, and then did a couple films a month, on weekends. Then he met Seth. Seth was brand new to the scene, he had never done a movie, never even been with a man. And that was it- instant connection, instant love, instant relationship. For the next 6 years, it was all Liam and Seth, both onscreen and off. Then, right as they were about to get out of the business, move back to Florida, and be happy together, something horrible happened, causing Liam to run, and Seth to think he'd been abandoned for one more payday.
Liam spent 4 years trying to get his life straightened out, and he's mostly succeeded. He has a good job (that he hates), and if he's started looking at his son Kel differently since he grew up and came out of the closet, it's ok, he can just avoid him as much as possible. It's not like he's ever even been a REAL dad to Kel.
Kel doesn't even call him dad, he calls him Liam, and he calls Kenny dad. Always has. He's never seen Liam as his dad, but as more of a best friend type deal. I guess that happens when there are only 17 years between you and you only get a few days here and there together. Kel just knows that, right or wrong, he loves Liam, and not the way you love a father, which Liam never really was, anyway. Kel knows much more about the family situation than ANYONE suspects. Beyond Complicated.
Liam decides enough's enough, he can't keep avoiding Kel, and they agree to meet for dinner one night. Kel brings his new boyfriend, who is, surprise! Love of his life Seth! His son and his ex? Oh god, Liam can't get out of there fast enough.
Of course, Seth follows, wanting to know why he never even knew Liam had a son, was their whole life together a lie? And Liam wants to know where Seth's been all this time, how he lives with himself and what he did to Liam before he left. Seth is kinda clueless though, he doesn't know WHAT Liam is talking about. They did one last video together, then Liam took the money and ran.
Of course, as these things happen, Liam and Seth fall right into angry hot sex. They both conveniently forget about Kel. It's really sad- throughout everything, Liam is the one acting most hurt, but really, it's Kel that goes through hell. Kel, with the totally fucked up, drunk parents, Kel about to lose his new boyfriend to the person that's always been closest to him, Kel loses father figure after father figure thanks to his fucked up slut of a mother.
Sooo complicated. You have Kel and Seth. Then you have Liam and Seth. And then comes Liam and Kel, and finally, Liam and Kel and Seth all together. What should be wrong feels so right to all of them, and to this reader. This is some of the hottest, raunchiest sex I have EVER read. I had to put it down a couple of times, because I thought my Kindle was going to melt. Really, it was just me melting, lol!
I loved Liam and Kel. Liam was just beyond fucked up, beyond screwed over by Kenny and Sabrina, and totally lost. Kel was much more adult at 21 than Liam was at 38. He knew what he wanted, and he went after it, and he made no apologies to anyone. Seth was the enigma to me in all of this. We got lots of background into Liam and Kel, but not much on Seth. We know he met Liam through porn, and he became a lawyer after they split. That's IT. We don't even know if he got out of porn after that "last" video that caused a lot of this mess, or if he kept doing it after Liam left.
I also don't feel Seth suffered enough. What happened to Liam was awful, and Seth was a HUGE part of that. Maybe he didn't *know* what was really going on, but he should have. He should have known something wasn't right. He should have known it wasn't all scripted. And when Liam disappeared right after, he SHOULD have followed, and demanded to know why, instead of just moving on with his life.
This story has so many twists and turns. It reminds me of a soap opera. A really dirty, raunchy, fucked up soap opera. Maybe a gay Melrose Place, where it's all about sex and betrayal, love and loss and finding love again.
I highly recommend this story. I will reread it for the heat factor along, but the story is good too, if totally unbelievable.
Let's try this again, a little less rambly.
I LOVED this book!
For those of you that look at my Fucking Loved if Shelf, here's a warning: this book contains themes you might not like- pseudo incest (that one of them actually thinks is real incest at first) and cheating. If either of those make or break a story for you, consider yourself warned.
Liam was gay, always had been. But he got caught up in a game of revenge between the prom queen and the bad boy, and ended up on the hook for a baby, at 16. Liam tried to be a good dad to Kel, even though he only saw him two weekends a month, from Saturday morning to Sunday afternoon. His parents paid the hospital bills, and Liam did the best he could with school and work and being a very part time dad.
He felt so much guilt about how much his parents were having to give up to help him out, that Liam fell into porn to help pay the bills. In porn he could finally be with men, and he could pay his child support, and Sabrina was milking him dry of every dime she could get, along with her scum bag husband, Kenny. The job wasn't so bad. He kept his day job, and then did a couple films a month, on weekends. Then he met Seth. Seth was brand new to the scene, he had never done a movie, never even been with a man. And that was it- instant connection, instant love, instant relationship. For the next 6 years, it was all Liam and Seth, both onscreen and off. Then, right as they were about to get out of the business, move back to Florida, and be happy together, something horrible happened, causing Liam to run, and Seth to think he'd been abandoned for one more payday.
Liam spent 4 years trying to get his life straightened out, and he's mostly succeeded. He has a good job (that he hates), and if he's started looking at his son Kel differently since he grew up and came out of the closet, it's ok, he can just avoid him as much as possible. It's not like he's ever even been a REAL dad to Kel.
Kel doesn't even call him dad, he calls him Liam, and he calls Kenny dad. Always has. He's never seen Liam as his dad, but as more of a best friend type deal. I guess that happens when there are only 17 years between you and you only get a few days here and there together. Kel just knows that, right or wrong, he loves Liam, and not the way you love a father, which Liam never really was, anyway. Kel knows much more about the family situation than ANYONE suspects. Beyond Complicated.
Liam decides enough's enough, he can't keep avoiding Kel, and they agree to meet for dinner one night. Kel brings his new boyfriend, who is, surprise! Love of his life Seth! His son and his ex? Oh god, Liam can't get out of there fast enough.
Of course, Seth follows, wanting to know why he never even knew Liam had a son, was their whole life together a lie? And Liam wants to know where Seth's been all this time, how he lives with himself and what he did to Liam before he left. Seth is kinda clueless though, he doesn't know WHAT Liam is talking about. They did one last video together, then Liam took the money and ran.
Of course, as these things happen, Liam and Seth fall right into angry hot sex. They both conveniently forget about Kel. It's really sad- throughout everything, Liam is the one acting most hurt, but really, it's Kel that goes through hell. Kel, with the totally fucked up, drunk parents, Kel about to lose his new boyfriend to the person that's always been closest to him, Kel loses father figure after father figure thanks to his fucked up slut of a mother.
Sooo complicated. You have Kel and Seth. Then you have Liam and Seth. And then comes Liam and Kel, and finally, Liam and Kel and Seth all together. What should be wrong feels so right to all of them, and to this reader. This is some of the hottest, raunchiest sex I have EVER read. I had to put it down a couple of times, because I thought my Kindle was going to melt. Really, it was just me melting, lol!
I loved Liam and Kel. Liam was just beyond fucked up, beyond screwed over by Kenny and Sabrina, and totally lost. Kel was much more adult at 21 than Liam was at 38. He knew what he wanted, and he went after it, and he made no apologies to anyone. Seth was the enigma to me in all of this. We got lots of background into Liam and Kel, but not much on Seth. We know he met Liam through porn, and he became a lawyer after they split. That's IT. We don't even know if he got out of porn after that "last" video that caused a lot of this mess, or if he kept doing it after Liam left.
I also don't feel Seth suffered enough. What happened to Liam was awful, and Seth was a HUGE part of that. Maybe he didn't *know* what was really going on, but he should have. He should have known something wasn't right. He should have known it wasn't all scripted. And when Liam disappeared right after, he SHOULD have followed, and demanded to know why, instead of just moving on with his life.
This story has so many twists and turns. It reminds me of a soap opera. A really dirty, raunchy, fucked up soap opera. Maybe a gay Melrose Place, where it's all about sex and betrayal, love and loss and finding love again.
I highly recommend this story. I will reread it for the heat factor along, but the story is good too, if totally unbelievable.
jlmason66's review against another edition
3.0
Maybe it's just me
Moderately solid story, but this book needs some serious editing. The misplaced punctuation throughout made certain passages very difficult to follow.
Now to the 'maybe it's just me' part. In no way do I want to belittle the trauma that Liam went through. He was violated and betrayed by people he trusted. But I can't help but feel sometimes that he needed to grow the fuck up. Many times, I wanted to just shake him and tell him to grow a pair and fight back. He made the choice to do adult films, and I respect that. What I am having a little more trouble getting my head around is all the anger and self hatred that he buried himself in. Maybe it's just me, but I would be pissed and fight back. I got a little weary of seeing him curled in a fetal position and sobbing. I get it, Liam, I truly do. But you know you didn't deserve any of that and people were doing you dirty, so put on your big boy pants and start kicking ass. Your reputation was already destroyed, you couldn't lose much more. Start kicking ass and taking names.
That being said, all in all I did enjoy the story for the most part. The presumed in¢est was not a trigger for me. What bothered me most of all was the messy editing that continually brought me out of the story and forced me to reread passages and sort out the word jumble.
I'm also a bit disappointed with the lack of epilogue or sequel. I really want to know how Liam and his men work through everything.
Moderately solid story, but this book needs some serious editing. The misplaced punctuation throughout made certain passages very difficult to follow.
Now to the 'maybe it's just me' part. In no way do I want to belittle the trauma that Liam went through. He was violated and betrayed by people he trusted. But I can't help but feel sometimes that he needed to grow the fuck up. Many times, I wanted to just shake him and tell him to grow a pair and fight back. He made the choice to do adult films, and I respect that. What I am having a little more trouble getting my head around is all the anger and self hatred that he buried himself in. Maybe it's just me, but I would be pissed and fight back. I got a little weary of seeing him curled in a fetal position and sobbing. I get it, Liam, I truly do. But you know you didn't deserve any of that and people were doing you dirty, so put on your big boy pants and start kicking ass. Your reputation was already destroyed, you couldn't lose much more. Start kicking ass and taking names.
That being said, all in all I did enjoy the story for the most part. The presumed in¢est was not a trigger for me. What bothered me most of all was the messy editing that continually brought me out of the story and forced me to reread passages and sort out the word jumble.
I'm also a bit disappointed with the lack of epilogue or sequel. I really want to know how Liam and his men work through everything.
meatloafqueen's review against another edition
3.0
Beyond OTT drama, but also crazy hot at times, soo
randalena's review against another edition
DNF at 11%
We start with Liam being raped as a minor and it not being acknowledged at all. Just because he was raped by a woman doesn’t mean he wasn’t raped. He said no. She got him drunk, restrained him and then raped him.
Then we find out the love of his life set him up for a gang rape. Even if it happened through a misunderstanding, it still happened. It made me sob. It happened off page, fortunately. But it is described.
But then the gang raper, uh I mean, love of his life shows back up dating his “son” that is a product of the first rape and Liam falls back into bed with him by that night.
So… rape, gang rape, and cheating all within the first 11%. Fuck no, I’m out.
We start with Liam being raped as a minor and it not being acknowledged at all. Just because he was raped by a woman doesn’t mean he wasn’t raped. He said no. She got him drunk, restrained him and then raped him.
Then we find out the love of his life set him up for a gang rape. Even if it happened through a misunderstanding, it still happened. It made me sob. It happened off page, fortunately. But it is described.
But then the gang raper, uh I mean, love of his life shows back up dating his “son” that is a product of the first rape and Liam falls back into bed with him by that night.
So… rape, gang rape, and cheating all within the first 11%. Fuck no, I’m out.
missysreadingcorner's review against another edition
5.0
Wow, that was an intense read. It was like a really messed up Jerry Springer episode with romance mixed in and I liked it. While there were a lot of revelations in the book, my favorite scene is when Kel goes off on Sabrina at Grace's birthday party. She was one twisted mother. Even Scar would be scared of her. I don't know how Celeste does it but once again I'm loving another one of her stories. The idea of incest (even though it turned out not to be) is not something most people are comfortable with reading but I still liked the story before the truth officially came out. I can't wait to read the next book.
csduong's review against another edition
4.0
Interesting. I had a hard time with the concept. Great writing.
nicola949's review against another edition
4.0
Decided to read this book as I thought it would take me out of my comfort zone but surprisingly, probably because of the twists, the relationship between Liam and Kel was easy to read. The story was full of twists, angst and lots of hot sex.
k_gauna's review
emotional
sad
medium-paced
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Sexual content
Moderate: Rape
shan198025's review against another edition
5.0
Whoa....I got through this book in a day. I HAD to know what happened next. My heart broke for Liam so many times. The guy had a rough road to travel that's for sure. Where Seth and Kel watched the video is one of the saddest things I've read. Then later to read about Liam's hospital stay....just wow. They said he was a coward but I thought he was doing the best he could.