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A Court of Mist and Fury by Sarah J. Maas

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5.0

Since this is my third re-read of this book i didn’t’t really want do a reviews. I don’t want to pull this book apart and examine it what i want to do is shout my love for this book/series from the rooftops. So instead of a conventional reviews i am just going to share my thoughts i had randomly throughout reading. You probably won’t want to read any furthur because it will have spoilers for this book and the first book. If you have read this then continue to see what my mind was doing as i was reading.
‘We are old cunning, and enjoy using words like blades and claws. Every word from your mouth, every turn of phrase, will be judged – and possibly used against you’ – Ianthe
Talk about subtle foreshadowing, Ianthe was a sneaky little priestess out for no one but herself and what other can do fo her, she took everything Feyre said and betrayed her. Just like Tamlin. Oh my god is he infuriating! He want to keep Feyre as his property and she was meant to nod and smiling along. Even when her guilt, grief and fear nearly killed her he never realised he wasn’t helping her. Luicen don’t even get me started he could have helped but he chose not to and that’s just as bad.
“So i’m your huntress and you thief?” His hands slid down to cup the backs of my knees as he said with a roguish grin, “You are my salvation, Feyre”


Feyre’s mind at this pointing is thinking please don’t like him but her hearts like to late! I don’t think i’ll ever get tired of their relationship is just gets better through each book.

I was not a pet, not a doll, not an animal.
I was a survivor, and i am strong.
I would not be weak and helpless again. i would not, could not be broken. Tamed
One of the best things about this book/ world is the characters. The character development in this book in particular really gets you. Feyre gets her strength back a starts fighting. I didn’t realise this book had mental health rep, both Feyre and Rhysnad have PTSD from the time they spent under the mounting and Feyre goes through a time of bad depression. I have to say this isn’t a common thing in fantasy novels, but i liked how seamless i was put in through this story.

“I want them to hear your story. And know there is a special strength in enduring such dark trails and hardships… and still remain warm, and kind. Still willing to trust – and reach out”
Mor is one of my personal favourite characters, she is a queen and i won’t be happy until she get her own happy ending. This book does elude to Cassian and Azreil showing interest in her but never makes it clear on what she want for herself and her love life but i have feeling it would be a spectaular adventure.

“A queen – a queen who bowed to no one, a queen who had faced then all down and trumped. A queen who owned her own body, her life, her destiny, and never apologise for it”
Said about Mor by Feyre we love Queens supporting other Queens!
“When you spend so long trapped in darkness, Lucien, you find that the darkness begins to talk back.”
Look at our Feyre just a ruined human turned far who almost lost her way being all sassy and strong, we love this for her.


My friend through many dangers.
My mate who has waited for me against all hope, despite all odds.
My lover who had healed my broken and weary soul.



Other random thoughts:
• Cassian has more under the surface he might seem all warrior and strong and he covers things well but i reckon he will surprise everyone with how much of a worrier and planner he is. I guess we will see more in to his personality in A court of Silver Flames (aaaaaahh)
• Azrial is exactly as advertised, organised, executive and blunt like the edge of a knife. I would love, love to see a softer side to him.
• The mortal queen are stupid to thing immortality will save them, what is a never ending life when you have no people and no trust or love to keep you alive.
• Nesta does annoy sometimes but i like that part of her character is unlikeable.
• Elain poor sweet Elain, i feel sorry for her but i also think this will be a better life her than ending up married to some hateful boy.
• I love this book, world and characters.

Well that’s is not really a review of the plot, just a lot of random fangirl moments throughout re-reading this fave.
The Anti-Virginity Pact by Katie Wismer

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3.0

3.5

We follow Meredith the preacher’s daughter who is going through a hard time, she struggling with her belief and about how to tell people then, she’s got pretty bad anxiety which I have to say is depicted well but I think that is a personal opinion cause not everyone with anxiety experience in the same way.

‘Not that I should be surprised – my anxiety has always been an unwanted but expected houseguest. I can usually anticipate it long before it starts to manifest, but no matter how hard I try to prepare or reason with my body, it still reacts as if the millions of times before haven’t taught it this is not a life or death situation. That it is, in fact, only making things even more difficult than necessary.’

She made a pact with her best friend Jo that they’d both lose their virginity before the end of senior year. Then Meredith gets worried when Jo decides she wants Mr. Graham, her teacher to be her first. I did like how it showed Meredith voicing her concerns about the idea, I just wish she never caved on what she thought was wrong, Because nothing good comes out of these situations. There was more talk of religion and believing or not believing that I thought was a really good undertone to have. It didn’t take up the full narrative but it went a long way in helping build the background of the character showing us why Meredith is the way she is when the book starts, and there were some good points where made.

I feel like the experience reading this book is like watching a TV show like Pretty Little Liars or Gossip Girl. I love these shows and find them entertaining which is exactly what I found in this book. This book is not a light or easy read it covers things like: Bullying, Religion, Sexual Assault, Animal Abuse, Substance abuse, Anxiety, and trauma. It is however addicting and keeps you glued to the pages wanting to find out what happens.

‘Eyes will zero in on my read cheek and the beads of sweat in my hairline. I’ll try to speak. My blood will thunder so loudly in my ears I’ll barely even hear my own voice as it comes out thin and shaky – a dead indicator to everyone around me of just how nervous I am over something completely simple and stupid like getting called on in class. They’ll all know in a panicked, shaky mess.’


One of my favorite aspects of this book is the sisters. I found Mare and Harper’s relationship quite endearing and totally realistic, especially towards the end of the novel. I think the whole book came off as quite realistic, it has some important message and the writing was solid. It really did feel like an appropriate narrative the characters sounded and acted their age. The writing of the characters came across as genuine. I didn’t have any expectations going into this. I watch Katie Wismer’s book tube channel and was excited to get approved for an arc from NetGalley but I went in expecting nothing and came out with a book I enjoyed.
The Black Flamingo by Dean Atta

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5.0

I intended on picking up The Black flamingo because I wasn’t that tired and still in the mood to read before bed. I haven’t been able to put this book down. I feel like I’m seeing into Mikes soul. Every character and interaction is well written, the narrative makes you question along with Mike, it makes you stand up and root for him.

We follow Michael as he loves for the first time.
As he confuses attention and love.
As he deals with vitriol and hatred.
As he gets continually shamed for being him.
As he struggles with his mixed race identity and not being either white enough or black enough.
As he finally finds himself through drag performance.

I Wanna Be Fierce

I’ve been friendly.
I’ve been frightened.
I’ve been fake.
But I’ve never been fierce.

I’ve been frustrated.
I’ve been forgotten.
I’ve been forgiving.
But I’ve never been fierce.

I wanna be fabulous.
I wanna be flamboyant.
I wanna flaunt what I’ve got.
I want to be fierce.

Absolutely amazing, insightful, honest raw and passionate. A must read with all the feels. Trust me you’ll want to pick this up and get to know Mike and walk with him through his life. Beautiful prose, glittery language and everything I wanted it to be!
What Lies Between Us by John Marrs

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4.0

4.5

Following duel perspectives and alternating time lines, we follow Maggie a Sixty Eight year old women living out her days in her house confined to one room and chained most of the time and Nina; a younger women who is Maggies keeper. What do these two women have in common? They are mother and daughter. This is were the two time lines comes in. We get some present day with Maggie being held prisoner and Nina being her captor but then we jump back Twenty – Five years later. We get the story of how they get too were they are now in the present. I love this aspect of the story. The slow build up and revealing of answers to the questions you ask yourself all the way throughout the narrative.

These characters are twisted, both of them are unreliable although Nina is definitely the crazier of the two. The lies, secrets and drama of this story is so addicting! The characters are so well developed, at time I felt bad for them, I was shocked by them. Nina is unpredictable having experienced extremely emotional childhood this causes a downfall of dominos warping her mind and actions. Maggie is a mother above all else her actions have been to protect her daughter. She has done things many people wouldn’t. There a lot of emotions and insights that come from her character you want her to be free.

Overall great read if you want an shaky narrative, with so many twisted turns this is an addictive and fast read.
Hearts in Darkness by Laura Kaye

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3.0

Cute

This was kind of like a meet cute, I enjoyed it and I enjoyed the characters I just felt like I want it to be a full length novel about Caden and McKenna. I want to see there lives up till this point and then after this scene I want to to see them go on a date? I think I would have enjoyed this more had I had more time to get invested in the story. I felt like I was being told the information about them instead of being showing and if there more i time to explore the characters it would have benefited the overall out come.
The Babysitter by Jack Harbon

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3.0

Yes, yes and wait a minute... YES

Read for the Smutathon
I originally gave this a five star but I think I have to rethink my ratings of smutty books because even though I loved this story and even though it was an enjoyable time I find i didn’t have enough time with the characters and I didn’t have enough development. I can not compare this book with my other five star reads because it just wasn’t long enough and through read for the smutathon I have found I like a well round story. I would have really enjoyed this if it was a full novel I think. I love the voice, the writing and I was invested I. The scene I just wish it was a scene in a novel and not a short story.

I would be interested in picking up a novel from this author.
Theirs for the Night by Katee Robert

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4.0

This was so fun

Great introduction, I’m so happy I read this for the smutathon readathon. I enjoyed the characters and want to see more of them so I would be interested in picking up the first full novel. Meg goes out on the town for her birthday and gets more than she’s bargained for when she meet two friends who show interest in her. One thing I did love in this book was how gentlemanly Theo and Galen were. Always asking if she is sure, if she want to get a taxi home. I liked that Meg was t drunk when she agreed to go home with them. I would definitely like to see more from the characters and this world. I want to know why Theo is on the run from his family, why he’s not a prince anymore? Also I want to see more interaction between Theo and Galen because I have a feeling they would be funny/cute together but... most of all I want them to re-enter Megs world and see how they all become.
My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell

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5.0

This is one of the hardest books I’ve read, it’s a haunting story filled with hard hitting topics. The main character Vanessa was such a strong narrative being in her head was an experience, this book won’t be for everyone and I advise to read these Trigger warnings - rape, pedophilia, gaslighting, sexual assault, physical abuse, grieving, child pornography mention/acts, talk of suicide, suicide, fatphobic comments, disordered eating, overall this is a read you should not pick up lightly

We start the story and end the story in the same mind Vanessa, when she was a young girl she had a what she thought of as a relationship with a teacher at her boarding school. We follow Vanessa through her teenage years and we watch how a twisted man breaks in to her mind and takes advantage of the power dynamic. The more we explore Vanessa’s past things get infuriating, Vanessa was head over heels in love with Strane, she had an understanding of what was happening but not the real clue that he was a predator. Reading from an outsider is easy you know exactly what to do when being a spectator in someone else’s story but with this book drags you in over the course of time. Strane I believe had been getting away with this indecent, immoral behaviour for years, it never explicitly says but I think Vanessa was the first time it’s gone as far as it did. He keeps in contact with her through the years and at points Vanessa does say things that make you believe she knows what he is and what he’s done. Then she protects him and believes him time and time again. He really manipulated her from the age of fifteen to the age of thirty three.

Everything that follow is a life changed forever, Vanessa never seen herself as a victim, she never thought he took advantage, she thought they were in love. Taylor a woman who comes forward with accusation against Strane for molesting her it puts Vanessa in to a spiral remembering her past with him. The book really explores how people can think about things differently, how trauma and healing are different for everyone. It’s also scary to the way the mind response to unrecognised trauma. At one point Vanessa says to her therapist ‘she needs it to be a love story’ she was made to feel and think about it as romantic, because it hid the truth.

This was a great book, it was hard to read and times it made me uncomfortable it it was written well and it’s so raw and passionate yet hurtful and at times it will make your skin crawl. This book is definitely not for everyone but it’s a book that doesn’t romanticise student/teacher relationship. It’s a real take one what a mind might look like after being through so much and how surviving might not always be thriving but it’s something everyone does differently and something to proud of.
The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer by Michelle Hodkin

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4.0

This has been on my TBR list since I first discovered book-tube, I finally decided to pick it up when I seen the whole series on Scribd.

Now I went in to this book with low expectations and high anticipation. I get why everyone loves/hyped this book. The book drew me in from the first few chapters. Mara Dyer the sole survivor of an accident that killed her two friends and boyfriend wakes up in hospital with no memories of what happened. This then lead to her and her family moving, for a fresh start.

Enter Croyden the new private school she’s now a student in, along with her brother Daniel. I really enjoyed the interaction with Mara and her family. Her brothers Daniel and Joseph are great siblings and Mara’s parent were quite present in this book which I enjoyed. I think it added to the story with them around her while she slowly looses her mind.

Enter Noah shaw the one that shall not leave Mara alone. I enjoyed Noah as a Love interest he really cared for Mara and when Mara finally lets her guard down around him they really work.

There’s a lot that happens in this book, I felt like every plot and subplot came through. I do however wish we got more flashbacks to her and her friends before they died I think It would make more of a heart racing run up to her remembering that night if we got a bit more detail of what the friend group was like before.

All the episodes Mara had while hallucinating were done well I really enjoyed the unpredictable narrator. I do wish her power is more explored in the second book because I want to know how it works.


I would like to note that I didn’t guess what the ending would be so I am intrigued about what the next book holds.
Paper Princess by Erin Watt

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4.0

This was a fun addictive new adult romance, I enjoyed this book and I’m glad I finally picked it up because it has been on my list since it came out and everyone was speaking about it.

This book is problematic and does deal with a lot of issues, I go in to new adult romance books with open mind. There are a lot of trope this books falls in to. Enemies to lovers, controlling overtones and sexist comments. I think this is all set up in the first book so the characters can grow. It’s pure entertainment for me and I don’t take this as healthy lifestyles or relationships.

Trigger warnings : losing a parent, underage sexual content (17), physical abuse, sexual assault, attempted rape, underage drinking, drug use, addiction, a lot of slut shaming, and a lot of toxic male masculinity. So please use caution before going into this book.

Ella being thrust in to the world of the Richie rich Royals after spending her time struggling to make ends meet by stripping. It was entertaining, fast paced and smutty.

The characters were great my favourite was definitely Easton and I’m totally up for reading more just to get to his book. Ella was the most relatable but not really because of the stripping but I a world we’re money is everything and there’s only one character who doesn’t have money and the life of a rich person is definitely going to be the more down to earth one.

There was few thinks I didn’t like, the boys could cook there own supper so Ella done it? Look up a recipe and follow it (that private school isn’t worth it is?) Also the slut shaming in this book was horrible, judgement was made way before anyone knew Ella! I hate the label slut anyways I think everyone is entitled to do what the like without getting slandered for it and if you don’t agree with the way they live there life that’s fine you don’t have to live that way. Although Ella was strong in this book and didn’t let it get to her.

The ending had me shocked like not the what but the who got me.

I have a funny feeling these books with addictive, fun and totally problematic.